My Life, My Testimony

But I knew deep down in my heart, that I was not completely happy.

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The reason why I am writing this is simply because I cannot contain my emotions.

It is so overwhelming and it is quite fulfilling at the same time.

This is me,

A writer and a manager

by accident.

But my sole reason to write this down wasn’t really to make you feel small about yourself, but rather to see this thing in a positive light.

You see,

Life is hard and so is the person who is talking to you now.

I had been in so much pain for the past several years of my life and little by little, I start to become more bitter of the hurtful fact that…

Others have already discovered their

Thing“.

I myself had been so depressed that only few people know what I had been going through.

It’s like, every time I look at myself in the mirror…

I’ll repetitively ask,

Who are you?!

I don’t even know.

Are you really happy with you have?

Does growing up from a well-off family would be truly enough?

To keep you & make you happy?

Well, for some it’s fine.

But not for me!

I am not denying the fact that I did not enjoy my privilege nor my kind of freedom in some areas of my life.

But I knew deep down in my heart, that I was not completely happy.

I need to do something about it.

For so many years, I’d been trying anything and everything just to make myself feel good.

Fast forward, I wasn’t okay at all.

I was broken into pieces that only myself could fix!

I was longing for answers.

Each night, I kept asking.

Why I knew nothing so much about my strength?!

What’s my strength?

I honestly don’t even know.

But God in mysterious ways lead me into something I didn’t plan nor expected to have.

I have been given a position which a lot of people became envious of.

A manager,

Something that they cannot ever be replaced ’cause…

I am a manager

by accident. ✨

I am the daughter of their boss, so how can they ever beat that?

But though I was given a high position, never did I try to be complacent and relaxed.

As much as possible, I trained people to be well-guided

And

If possible,

To be well-educated.

Meaning, not only that they will end up being knowledgeable,

But also with manners and right conduct.

Anyone who fails, need a one-on-one talk from me.

The next big thing is,

being a writer/blogger.

Well, the truth is…

I have always been a fan of blogs.

However, I did not see this coming.

I have just always wanted to read good stuffs here and there.

But never did I ever want to speak for the world.

However,

Life is full of mysteries.

You’ll never know what you’ll ever get.

So with that, I am planning to write a book by 2020!

Hopefully, I could pursue it despite of my obligations at home and at work.

You know what,

God has always been amazing to us.

We have always wanted something, but God didn’t allow us to have that!

‘Cause for obvious reason,

That is not the one that’s in store for you.

And if ever we did try our best, still God is the maker of our life.

There is nothing else we could do, but to trust Him enough and see where is this going far.

And if for several times, you did doubt yourself…

It’s fine!

‘Cause God will always lead you to the right path.

No matter how confusing your life gets!

Actually, it’s only my second week of blogging.

But who would have thought that I’ve already written and discussed more than 30 topics for almost 2 weeks!

Imagine how truly great God is! 😭

And that’s when I realized that,

Ah, this is really what God wants me to be. 💕

He uses me to speak for all of you about the Good news!

And that is,

CLARITY!

That someday, somehow God will make you realize why you have to go through all that sacrifices and pain!

Because…

He wants you to be ready enough for

Greatness.

Great blessings.

Great opportunities.

But most of all,

Great God!

That no matter what you do, you cannot outrun his provisions for you.

And I would like to end my post by a question that,

If God is here in front of you, what would you want to say?

Comment below!


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Author: Zandra L.

A writer and a manager by accident.