I had been wanting to sit beside the window

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When I was a child, I love looking out the window.

You know why?

‘Cause back then, I am not allowed to go outside.

I remember, I always cry whenever my parents don’t allow me to go out.

I often ask myself, why I can’t live like normal kids out there?

And even today, I still can’t go out alone.

At the age of 25, I guess you can now do things freely without your parents’ permission.

But I was wrong.

Everything remained just the same.

To be honest, it’s really frustrating, tiring and suffocating to have such parents like them.

But along the way, I have realized one thing.

No parents want their children to be in trouble.

Though, there are some who could do that to their own blood and flesh.

But generally speaking, the main reason for having a very strict and protective parents was because…

They don’t want to regret such a thing!

And luckily, now that I am 25, I somehow applied the “reverse psychology” thing.

Wherein, you need to see the opposite side of life.

That’s why, whenever I feel hurt, I try to analyze why am I hurting and what’s the main reason for feeling that way.

And I think thoroughly ’til I come to my senses that, maybe it is not yet my time to have enough freedom.

Though, my age is already overdue for some…

I try to find some ways to somehow ease the pain that I’m feeling inside.

I just tell myself that maybe, I’ll just put myself in danger or maybe, there are a lot more better things to be done than that.

Each time I think negatively, I just drowned myself into that kind of feeling.

I just let it out!

To the point of saying bad words to myself.

But once I’m done, little by little, I gather myself together and remind myself that I am loved.

That whatever they are doing is after all, for my safety.

For my own sake.

So, how about you?

Aside from looking out the window, what’s your other outlet whenever you are grounded?

Comment below and share it with us if you are also dealing with a strict and protective parents.

I might help you out without the need to rebel.

Gracias!


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Author: Zandra L.

A writer and a manager by accident.