Silent Scream

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When you want to say something, but you decided to shut your mouth ’cause you have nothing good to say.

When you became so used to hiding your feelings ’cause you were always misunderstood before they console you.

I felt that too often.

I also feel that I have this worst enemy in me that I can only solve by myself.

I am physically strong, yet too emotionally weak.

I have several tendencies to commit suicide.

But kept reminding myself that I still have many things to experience before ending my life.

This is for the people who cannot voice out.

This is not for the weak, this is just for the people who became fed up in trying to prove one’s worth.

There are some moments, well most of the time I really don’t open up.

I just don’t feel comfortable enough to share.

I may share a part of it. But not every detail.

There are some stuffs you have to keep it to yourself ’cause not everyone are a good listener.

Not everyone is understanding.

Not everyone is like you.

I am writing this ’cause whoever is planning to commit suicide, you are not alone.

‘Cause I am just like anybody else who can be a worst enemy to oneself.

When something or someone pissed me off, I try to limit my response.

I try to appear that I am not hurt.

I try to act okay.

But the truth is, the more I try to hide it, the more painful it becomes.

Sometimes, it is better to talk with strangers ’cause what’s more important is that…you were able to let it out.

I am voicing out here ’cause there are things that I cannot open up to others.

Some are way too jugdmental.

Some don’t have the heart to be understanding.

Some wouldn’t do any help to you.

So, why not share it here? Only people who can understand and relate to me can leave a comment.

That’s all.


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Author: Zandra L.

A writer and a manager by accident.

3 thoughts on “Silent Scream”

  1. There was a time when I preferred to shut instead of expressing myself too, but my mind was not healthy. I started to feel frustrated and misunderstood too as you said. But I’ve learned to express myself, not to be convinced that I was just wrong but to make others see what I was talking about. It hasn’t been easy but my advice is to not let others say that what you feel is wrong, feelings have a reason and even when it’s difficult to explain and for others to understand it requires more for both sides (speaker and listener). If someone doesn’t make an effort to understand you maybe you’re with the wrong person. Don’t blame yourself, you are worth and you are important.

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    1. I couldn’t agree with you more, Dear. Like what I’ve said, you can choose to flight instead of making a fight. Sometimes, it is not worth the energy and time, so better yet brush it off and go for set of people who could truly understand you. It could be your family, friends, colleagues, or your constant. There are a lot of people in this world, don’t limit yourself in knowing them and stop caging yourself just because you feel that way. You can write about it, too like what I did on my blog. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and experiences, Dear. God bless you.

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    2. By the way, I discussed The flight vs fight on my upcoming scheduled post. I forgot, it was not yet post. 😅 But I guess, you got it right. ☺ Don’t you?

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