Here we go again and again. It’s so hard to pretend that it’s fine or it’s going to be fine.
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Valentine’s Day supposed to be a celebration of love, yet so many people fell into idea that it was made for couples alone. It felt as if they are the only ones who are entitled to celebrate and to feel great, while others don’t have one or still not in a state of legal relationship. What’s more depressing is that, we single people tend to lock ourselves at home for we don’t like the idea of being left out or worst, being pitied and bullied on.
For someone like me who grew up being grounded, it’s so hard for me to adjust and to make friends to get along with others. My parents only have the two of us and they cannot afford to lose us. That is why, they are being so protective and sometimes, being paranoid✌ to the point of feeling that you cannot even breathe.
Well, our parents did everything just for us to remain happy and fulfilled. But though I always feel loved and secured, out of the blue, my heart will suddenly feel empty and the feeling of being lost comes next to it. But I have realized that I am feeling this way all because I was raised differently by our parents. I have just thought that, there is so much in life that I hardly relate to, which leads me to grew up being firm and extremely independent. In addition to that, I used to believe that my journey needs to be done alone and that’s fine with me as long as my family will be alive ’til 100 years old or beyond that age; or when I am ready to let them go.
Anyways, whenever I cry secretly, I die ’cause most people never know about it. I decide not to reveal my true emotions for I am sure that they will not understand me, not unless they were raised just the same as mine. You see, we may appear to be well-provided, but along the way, we were always constrained to do something.
I know, I know, that’s very saddening. Right? But though my heart is aching and feel like breaking into pieces, I still try to listen to them whenever possible and understand them that they are just doing it out of pure concern and love for us. As a result of that, I cannot imagine a life without my family.
For obvious reason, in my 25 years of existence, my life has been all about them and losing even one of them makes me want to die first before them.
So, this Valentine’s Day, all I’m asking and praying for is a complete family, ’cause (again) that’s all I’ve got.
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